Reclaiming the Seasons

My flower pots are still going strong. I’m already think­ing of things for next Spring that I want to do for the out­side gar­dens. The months lead­ing up to the Spring are going to involve a lot of indoor orga­niz­ing as part of new adventures.

I’m going to be the first to admit that orga­niz­ing is not my favorite thing. But I’m ready to turn over a new leaf with the end of grad­u­ate school & my epiphany that I don’t want to wait any longer to explore what I enjoy in life. I was read­ing an arti­cle in a Hall­mark mag­a­zine in from March 2008 because I hadn’t brought my book in with me. I didn’t feel like ask­ing per­mis­sion to go to the car to get it. So I was look­ing for some­thing to read and there were a hand­ful of mag­a­zines lying around. For some rea­son I grabbed the only mag­a­zine from more than a year ago, the rest were from the last cou­ple months.

I then sat down and start­ing flip­ping through it. I came across an arti­cle about Ali­cia Paul­son who was involved in a hor­rific acci­dent with a garbage truck. Her foot was lit­er­ally destroyed & dur­ing the process of heal­ing she dis­cov­ered a new path for her­self. I was impressed at her strength & courage. She inspired me with her story.

And I real­ized at that moment sit­ting there wait­ing for my name to be called that I don’t want to wait any­more to dis­cover who I am. I love my fam­ily & love cre­at­ing, I am excited to start explor­ing those more together. I’m also ner­vous because I’ve been so stuck in books & research that I’ve lost that con­nec­tion to the pas­sion of the world around me. It’s no one else’s fault but my own. I didn’t take to con­tinue doing what I enjoyed cre­atively. My hus­band has always encour­aged me to con­tinue what I enjoy, but I thought it took time away from more stu­dious things. While that might have been true, it also left me feel­ing a cre­ative void.

That means I plan some adjust­ments at home. Includ­ing clean­ing out and reor­ga­niz­ing the dis­as­ter area I call a base­ment office. I thought about tak­ing a pic­ture to show y’all but then I thought it might cause you to pass out in hor­ror at the sight of such a dis­as­trous scene exist­ing in this world. Papers piled high, books stacked, and boxes. Oh Have Mercy On Me!! The clut­ter is almost for even me to remain con­scious after see­ing, but I think this is a good time of year to make a leap. That means get­ting over my office orga­niz­ing issues & get­ting back to me.

I’m reclaim­ing my sea­sons. Because in Fall while many often focus on the dieing of life around them, the impend­ing cold Win­ters. I’ve always seen Fall as part of the shed­ding of the old to make room for the birth of the new life in Spring.

I’m really look­ing for­ward to the process of bring­ing forth Spring. How about you? Have you real­ized that you’ve lost touch with some part of your­self? Have you reclaimed that part of you?

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