My anxiety has been out of control the last 2 days. More so than other days. No idea why. Except that it is. A lack of vanilla to make cookies for a Scout banquet set me off yesterday. Because obviously no vanilla until after 5 p.m. (when my husband would bring a brand spanking new bottle of vanilla that he went out of his way to pick up for me at the store on his way home) was ZOMG! End of the WORLD!!
It sucks more when logically I know there is no reason to feel anxious, no reason to panic and no reason to get worked up over nothing. But yet I still feel overwhelmed and panicked by the massive wave of anxiety that comes over me. I hate anxiety. I hate that hating anxiety only makes it worse.
Anyway, when I am feeling super anxious some sweet, silly and totally non-anxiety producing activities are what I crave. Enter gangnam style baby. I love that this kid can sleep through anything but gangnam style. I love that when my kids saw this they all started to laugh like the big sister with glee and pure joy at so much excitement. I love that for a brief minute I could simply laugh and feel the wave subside until it crashes again.