Bears and Bears, Oh My!

by beth on October 14, 2010

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I’m a big fan of this foun­tain. It’s The Horace Rack­ham Memo­r­ial Foun­tain sculpted by Cor­rado Par­ducci in 1939.  Although around here every­one just calls it Bear Foun­tain.  There is some­thing mag­i­cal about it in my mind. I wish it had been still work­ing when we were at the Detroit Zoo, it’s spec­tac­u­lar to see it bathed in water.  How­ever, there is some­thing wist­ful about see­ing the bears there with­out the water bathing their bod­ies.  I can’t put my fin­ger on it but it reminds me of wait­ing for times long gone by.

It also made a sur­prise cameo in the movie Cora­line…snow globe, snow globe there’s no place like home.

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Swaying in the Wind

by beth on October 13, 2010

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I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.  Part of the rea­son I used the word con­fused in my blog title here is because I AM con­fused.  Mike has joked with me for years that I’m a con­fused home­maker, com­plete with degree in hand & a drive to do try to do it all even if I’m not sure I want to. I’m in a per­pet­ual state of con­fu­sion. I’ve been this way for my whole life.  I’m pretty sure I came out of the womb like this.  I think there are pic­tures of me as a baby wring­ing my hands over which toy to play with next.

I STILL have no idea what I want to be when I grow up in terms of a career.  All I know is that I hope I’m a good per­son who loves life & loves the peo­ple around her fiercely well.  And maybe that is enough? Maybe that’s what we are sup­posed to be doing here? What I’m sup­posed to be doing?  You’d think by now I’d have fig­ured this out.  But maybe no one ever fig­ures it out?  Maybe that’s part of all this.  We’re all work­ing our way through “it” & just doing what we love & lov­ing is what “it” is. It’s that deep love that when we die we hope & pray to be bathed in, the good we’ve done  & been a part of.  Or maybe I’m just telling myself that to feel better.

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The Great Thinker

by beth on October 13, 2010

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We saw this guy at the zoo.  A great thinker relax­ing in the warm Autumn day.

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I began to won­der what he was think­ing about.  Per­haps he was going to give us the answers to world peace because if you didn’t know goril­las are largely peace­ful crea­tures. It seems King Kong got it all wrong, which is weird because I get all my sci­en­tific & his­tor­i­cal infor­ma­tion from movies & if movies are wrong.  Well, I’m not sure what to do.

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Then he did this.  And I thought ya know maybe us & these goril­las are more alike us than we’d like to admit.  I mean I was wait­ing for him to reach for a news­pa­per & go into the bath­room for 45 minutes.

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Yellow & Gold

by beth on October 12, 2010

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Yes­ter­day we went to the zoo.  I brought my cam­era.  I am try­ing to bring my cam­era more.  I was hop­ing (maybe) I’d have a chance to take some pic­tures of the changes this Fall/Autumn.

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You know until this week­end I never really thought much about how we call it Fall/Autumn.  But then my sec­ond son pointed out it’s the only sea­son we call two dif­fer­ent names.

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He said it’s because it’s spe­cial.  Right now the world us get­ting ready to go to sleep until spring.  Like before he goes to bed, he needs time.  Time to play, to relax & night comes around slowly with day­light fad­ing until the moon is shin­ning bright.  I like the idea of eas­ing into a long relax­ing sleep before we are renewed in spring.   Too bad I don’t like the idea of the cold that comes before the awakening.

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